Adam Matthew French - Online Memorial Website

Adam.... I still don't know if I've been able to come to grips with losing you. I don't know if I'll ever get over it. .... I'm sorry I left, you were supposed to be right behind me!! :(
You were doing  so good! ... But things happen for a reason.  You always told me.... Sometimes I still hear you.. I love you with all my heart even till this day... I'll be waiting till the time I see you again. . I just wish I had a lil longer with you:(. You were my world. Love you.. Tabs 

Haha, Theres one memory I barely remember, yet its one of my favorites!

 At the end of Bell street there was basically a mini forest, then more homes on the other side.. Anyways, adam and I would always play hide and seek around the house and outside! I was around six, so still very gullible! It was my turn to look for him, and thats exactly what I did for nearly 2 hours!!! He would call my name, and tell me places to look and I WOULD!!! I could hear him, but since he decided to go to the top of the tree, I couldnt tell where his voice was.. So im sure uncle got many laughs on that one.. I love you uncle(:<3

This is a funny memory I have you ADAM!! It was Carson Valley Days and we had a party at our house. You decided to pick up Barney (Dog) and put him on the counter with lots of empty beer BOTTLES!! Bottles went all over the place and were all over the floor broken!! I asked him to get the broom and help me! So Adam stood there with the broom in his hand and told me that he forgot how to use it! So I tried to help him remember how to use a broom he got so frustrated that he ran into his room!! It was pretty funny cause he keep telling me that he forgot to use a broom!! I think he just didn't want to pick up his mess ;)!! LOL well when I get to heaven I'm going to teach Mr. Adam to use a broom :)

Adam, I wish I could put into words the pain in my heart. It's so hard going through every day pretending I'm OK so no one asks or worries about me. I don't want to share your memory with anyone, it seems like. I just want to have my alone time, talking with you, yelling at you, missing you. My life hasn't been the same as it was when you were here. I know it won't ever be the same and I don't want it to. I ran into an old friend the other day. She said my "sparkle" has gone. She suggested counseling but how do I share with others the light you were in my life? I know other parents have lost children, but it feels like "How can anyone understand?" You were something special. There has never been another you and there never will be another you. You had this love and this light that cannot be re invented. It's yours and yours alone. This world is missing out on such a warm, loving soul. And each day you're gone I lose a little piece of my heart. It's only been 7 months since you left us alone, but it feels like a lifetime since I had a hug from you, since you crawled onto my bed and wanted to watch lifetime movies with me, since you raided my fridge or called and asked me to bring you lunch while you were working. I miss you son. Words can't describe the pain of missing you.

I was just remembering when we moved into our house last February and you stood right in front of the outdoor shower and said "Cool, does it work?" Then turned it on! Hahaha! You were drenched! You make me smile, son. I love you.